It is so hard to be a mother sometimes, even when our children are all grown up. In fact, sometimes it's harder when they're all grown up. You have to let them go, to make their own mistakes and choices, but when you see them walking down a wrong path, it is so hard to keep quiet. I want to give advice, but when it's ignored, it breaks my heart. Especially when I see that it will break my child; in fact, it very well might make that child lose everything. Then what do I do? All I can do is turn it over to God and trust that He will protect said child. I know I've done all I can to teach my children the ways of the Lord, and now they have to walk their own path. And for the most part they are doing well; they are smart, independent children, working towards their goals. But, then I see things that don't quite sit right with me, and it makes me worry. Or one of them tells me things that doesn't quite jive with what I've been told before. Was it an outright lie? - I don't know, I can't prove it, but I am suspicious, and it makes everything from then on become suspect. That is not a comfortable feeling. I want to trust my child. Not knowing is not a place I want to be. However, all I can do is trust in what I'm being told, and until I find out otherwise, that is what I must do. My only other recourse is to put it before the Lord. He says to put our anxieties before Him and so that is what I will do. All I have at this point is a feeling, and that's not enough to warrant a confrontation. The Lord also says to put our trust in Him so that is what I will do. He will always be there for us and I know that He protects and guides me and my children. He is my Salvation and Strength. He will get me through.
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